Meeting others on the path

I am tempted to re-title this blog because while OA is why I started this, it's not really the focus. Recovery isn't just from my addiction...it's about recovering my connection to the Divine, which I need help with every day.
Eating more uncooked fruits and veggies has been really good for me. For one, I am losing a lot of weight. It doesn't feel too fast, because I am not going hungry, losing energy, or feeling any negative effects from my diet change. I am also noticing that detoxing is really good for my body and really necessary and unfortunately, that has some not so pretty results. Some skin eruptions and interesting manifestations of detoxifying are somewhat apparent but I still feel good about going outside. Not to mention, my body feels great so I don't care!

I'm also doing colon therapy so that I can clean out any old and stagnant energy. It was an interesting first experience last week and I am eager to try it again. Even though I am regular, it's amazing what can come out.

I think the most important thing that has been happening is that I feel a lot more connected to the Divine. When I notice places in my life where I am stuck, it's easy to check in with God, ask for clarity (or have the lesson be revealed) and then follow the path. I still have feelings: anger, sadness, frustration, etc., but I find that I can move through them a lot better. They don't hang around to oppress me. Because of that, I also feel more drawn to specific callings and that's helpful too.

I am slow to work on my 4th step inventory. I feel oppressed by all the things I need to remember. But I suppose I don't have to do it all in one go. I can go one step at a time. I just feel like I have a LOT to write down.

The cravings have come back recently, with the detox, I've noticed. I see wheat, sugar, chocolate, etc and I imagine eating it all. I don't, luckily, but the temptation is there. I have allowed dark chocolate into my life and so far, it has not had an adverse effect (that I notice intuitively). It's so dark (91%) that I rarely want the huge piece that breaks off.

When I am eating my cooked dinner, if I have wheat, I am more inclined to eat more in general. At synagogue I am having a hard time saying no to Challah because it is so delicious and there is no alternative. I either have to start making my own, or bringing raw crackers to eat instead. Potlucks with other non-raw people and large groups are hard for me. Eating differently than Josh is also hard and I really want to have more folks to share with/call when raw eating is tough.

I am intrigued by the possibility of creating/experimenting with raw food, jewish style. Lots of Jewish foods are totally not possible for me to eat with a wheat sensitivity or because of a raw diet, so I want to see if I can create some staples. Sprouted challah would be really cool.
I just looked for a site for raw Passover and it seems there are many others who do the same thing! I found other recipes for other times, but again, they are simply vegan and not raw...but I have faith!

So on this raw food path and living foods lifestyle I am finding the recovery has taken on a much deeper meaning and has made a profound impact on my life. It's challenging at times, but I find that each interview with a raw foodist or each website that shows me more of what I am looking for in lifem brings me closer to myself. It's a strange process for sure, but I am enjoying. I feel abundant in it.

March 21st is the first day of Spring this year. Time for renewal!