Yeehaw!

Not a descriptive title, I admit. But I feel pretty good right now. And here's why:

Nothing big has changed...from the outside. I still work PT (although for the next three weeks, I'll be working FT!), still a contractor, spend most of my time in 12 step groups or at work or hanging with Josh. Simplified life, but enjoying it. My food awareness is changing rapidly. I'm going to OA meetings, with a totally different outlook than I had before. I'm keeping my cards close to my chest, rather than blabbing to all the people I know that I am going to OA.
I share openly about DA, but it feels different.
In OA though I am sharing more and I feel confident that I in that sharing, I am being honest about the fact that even though I don't look or feel like those who I hear or see, I belong in OA. Just by saying and feeling that, things are changing. All I'm *really* saying is that I use food instead of God. That makes me qualify.

Going to an OA retreat in two weeks. I'm a bit scared, but I am so willing right now. HP is showing me a totally different life that I can live and rather than thinking my way has been going so well, I'm willing to take a look at the way HP is showing me. So yay, that's a big move for me.

After a soul retrieval last weekend I realize that instead of writing, practicing energy work, singing, designing, and being in nature, I am using food and money to fill those holes. Boo. I have tools, not just 12 step tools, but personal tools that keep me connected, and I am able to use them too. I had an idea today that I could do a radio show on relationships. Like my examiner articles, but with my voice. And maybe share that with Josh? Hmm...that would be really great.