Everyday Life

I went to a meeting on Saturday in the U Dist. It was a lot better than my first meeting. Lots more people, lots of people that 'looked' like me. I felt better about not being overweight. I even saw a few people I knew.
The sharings were really great. It was nice to hear all the different kinds of people and their experiences. I got a newcomer's packet, which was just what I needed and wanted. It had numbers of people on it and inside was some info that cleared up a bit. I'd like to come back to that meeting as often as possible. There were younger people there too, which is nice to see. I mean, you know.
After the meeting I talked with Pam for a while and it was really nice to get out that nervous energy. I still have a lot. I'm starting to get a bit normal around the sugar and chocolate. There are a few people who are doing it at work and among my friends. That's good for me.
It's hard sometimes to see sweet things and not eat them. I just want an alternative. Refined sugar is crazy!
I had a few things that might have had sugar, but I did not give in to the temptation, which I was proud of. It's hard.
I think the buddy thing online is nice as well as being able to call several people at the Sat. meeting. Josh likes his Tuesday meeting, but I'm not sure I like my Tuesday meeting. Although, to be fair, it's at a good time. Maybe I can go to 2 meetings a week. We'll see. I suppose it might be nice to share a bit more at the smaller meeting. I like the step work. But I also like the newcomer stuff. There's a few other meetings I'd like to try as well, just to see how they are. Got to find a home meeting, you know?
Anyway, I told Selena and Layla yesterday about being in OA. I feel less shame about it because I know that I am in it because all I want to do is stop eating compulsively. There's no reason to justify it, I just want to stop eating unconsciously. Everyone seems to be surprised, which is to be expected, but honestly, I don't feel odd being in the meetings. It lets me be with different people as well as spend time thinking about my life and my actions in it.
Perhaps that is what I want. More conscious time to think about my life. I spose there are many ways to think about my life, but meetings provide a nice structure for it. At least, it will keep me on track, keep me thinking of things.

I have a huge headache right now! And food, advil, and water aren't helping. It is simply stress? I like getting ready leisurely but then I have a lot of time to sit. I'm waiting for laundry to finish. I have to take garbage and compost out.

Anyway, I'll be fine in Europe. But luckily I have a few people I can email in case it's too hard. But frankly, I am not eager to eat the chocolate or sugar. I am eager to stop that habit. I'm eager for help from my HP to help me stop it. :)

I'll check in later.